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2007-10-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

hi! im back! havent blog for 1 year liao! here's getting rusty!!!

2006-10-03T14:28:00.000+08:00

since friday, have not been feeling quite well until today..

on sat, i had tiny bit of sore throat and flu...wanted so much to just stay at home and sleep, but well, it was alvin's bday and rush's last day so....after dinner, we had our rush gathering and then...the lights went on as we were about to get high and tat really dampen my mood...so when the rest went in again after the lights went off......was a bit sian to go in liao+must queue somemore+my sore throat like got worse....

and until today the flu bug got better of me....but i have to still work....no choice....im asking myself when can i get pass living a day without drinking?

2006-09-27T14:28:00.000+08:00

How time flies.

We've been 2gather for already 3mths+ and counting...past few weeks were a CRAZY few weeks. we fought, quarrelled, had bad times with each other, but at the end of the day, everyting was all rite again. im trying hard now to accept his "bad points" and he's trying hard to accept mine too. hope everyting goes well..

have really been neglecting my frienz....i tink i have to really keep this in mind...i hate to neglect any one, especially close friends, because, at the end of the day, no matter wat happens, they will always be there for you....=)

for my clubbing kakis...i hope u all understand...as now im like almost wking everyday in the ktv pub...so its like almost impossible to go clubbing often like before....but anyway, i heard tat rush is closing down...oh my....really cant believe it....=(

Oh ya i have quit school.....isit a good or bad ting? i dun know...but 1 thing is for sure, i dun have to torture myself from worrying about so much things now.

2006-08-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

From last thursday until now...just 3 words...tired, tired and TIRED!!! holding 2 jobs now, and had been working almost everyday....no in fact i should say everyday.....=(

2006-08-23T11:34:00.000+08:00

i finally quit my job, finally dun haf to see her face anymore, last sun was my last day of work...and immediately the next day, mon, was my first day of work at boatquay....quite a funny feeling to me! when i went for the interview last week, i was hoping tat this would be smthing like a disco pub or u koe.....but it turns out to be ktv pub AGAIN....but never mind...the environment is completely different anyhow....in fact there are tons of differences....

my previous pub at bkt timah- middle n old age crowd
now at boatquay-young crowd

and my previous pub, have to do multiple tasks,have to be barmaid, kj, waitress, have to do job of a cleaner also, sweep the floor wash the toilet, even haf to be cook also, fry chicken wing sotong ball n chips, u can imagine my boss is veri niao! dun wan to employ more pple...and then always work OT no extra pay...no commission...eve n public holiday no double pay.....why i can stay there for so long i also dun koe, maybe one ting gd is tat i get along well with the customers there, dun bear to go......but at last i still make the decision to leave.....everyone's looking for greener pastures rite? so am I........now my pay is much more higher and be waitress can liao......im glad....

monday was my first day of work......i dun koe whether to be sad or happy or laugh..1 bartender and 2 waitress(including me) altogether....the sales for the whole nite oni $44...got 2guys come order 1 jug and left early...and then we got nothing to do for the whole nite, i drank chivas with the other waitress....then after some time the boss came.....he sang ktv while we play pool...then our boss jio us drink carlsberg!! and so the 4 of us just sit at the table and drink for the whole nite...still play 5 10 some more...haha....and then my frien came n order 1 jug....after tat go home liao...close at 2am bcos no pple...so this is how i spent my first day there...haha~

2006-07-31T14:35:00.000+08:00

i have been drinking for the past 2 nites while i was wking....i swear that my drinking has improved much, i even surprised myself drinking so much and not vomiting at all. now ah, life for me is quite sian...no should not say sian...quite slack....actually is gd, but on the other hand too slack also not gd.....bcos a lot of customers who nv see me for veri long say i gain weight liao.....argh.....tats the problem with always eating supper and enjoying life.....

oh ya last thursday i enjoyed myself with u all at mu....hope to have more times like tat 2gather =).....mu got feedback form a not ah? can complain why always repeat the same songs over and over again and why cannot shout at dancefloor?..haha..

who wan go rush on wed? who wan go mu on thur? jio me jio me i confirm free k!!!

2006-07-25T14:08:00.000+08:00

im happily having my holidays for more than a mth liao....wanting to change my job for a veri long time..my work place is really a fucked up place. anyone got jobs to recommend?

a insurance company called me up regarding my accident and wanted to help me claim from the other party...after like 6mths??!! i asked him and he said he was very busy until now, he looked through my files and called me..things are looking good for me now...and i thanked him for flipping through my files!

and oh, lately i also won $140 worth of za products in a lucky draw! life is not bad after all, rite? just tink of all the good things tat happen to you, they will neutralise all the bad things in yr life =)

2006-07-09T13:45:00.000+08:00

wow such a long time since i updated...i almost 4got i have a blog...heeeee.....anywayz.....during this period there is one veri important thing i have to constantly remind myself of.

Close your eyes and start to think about yrself, your life and wat are you doing everyday, who are the people u meet and wat are the goals in your life. Then start to have a picture of a steep hill in your head. Are you now at the bottom, in the middle, or at the peak of the hill?

2006-06-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

GOOD LOBANG!!! CLICK ON IT!!! =)

2006-05-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

It just sucks to have to countdown to the first paper...exactly how i felt 1yr ago......i left 4 more days to my first paper...and i havent even started revising yet......and to tink tat i have to endure 6 papers spread out within a mth.....the feeling just sucks........

now keep on tinking tat do i even need to take up this freaking course in the first place? does it make any difference anyway? an accounting diploma n a degree is the same rite? wat matters is experience in our line....when i start wk i still have to start off as an accounts asst. am i rite am i rite am i rite!!!!!!!!

i got a whole list of tings tat i wan to do after my exams..lately i tink too much clubbing not gd...not gd for health esp for yr skin leh......i dun koe why but i have been buying a lot of skincare products lately...siao la me...but dun worry...although i nv go rush for so long liao...i still like techno!

2006-04-27T01:40:00.000+08:00

t0night is the first time i sing at my wkplace after 8mths....cos nott much pple...and mainly bcos a yandao guy ask me sing duet with him also....haha.....

i bought a digital camera a few mths ago n then i took lots of pic but then until now i still dun koe hw to load into my com....stupid rite...

and then my frien jio me go bowling n i so happy but the next day when i tot of it....how to bowl sia.....need the right hand finger to bowl n my finger havent ok yet!

i spent time calling all the places to arrange for interview...5 places in one day..but in the end i still nv go...

i dun koe hw mani mths nv go clubbing liao....now ktv interests me more...im in love with singing!

when im in the sch library for 6hrs...i spent half of the time sleeping.......n 2moro im gg to the library again......

2006-04-26T15:18:00.000+08:00

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2006-03-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

update..have been spending much more than im earning.....have been tinking whether shd keep or sell my bike, have been tinking whether to find another job a nt, oh man,all tis tinking is killing me.

2006-02-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

today i woke up late afternoon and then i went sch and STUDY...2 to 3 hrs oni la, then go eat dinner at west mall and head home liao. anywayz...i didnt register for my revision classes last week...end up they sent another letter to remind me again, sent me email also, i still havent register, they called me up! ok....so now i have all tis classes ahead of me again...mock exams are freaking hell near!!! next week start liao......

take one step at a time see how......today i went mad in sch....tinking of all the tings u need to study and wan to study but havent finish yet.....tinking of how much i need to study will make me go mad and bad tempered easily...end up everyone who called me when i was studying tat period kana from me......feel so guilty now.....partly also bcos i got scolded and nag by my mother tis few days...say wat nv study....exam coming still always go out....study 3yr course become 5yr course...u 22 yrs old liao leh...blah blah blah......really like mosquito like tat keep on buzzing....cannot stop toking wan man. i koe i veri bad but tis really how i feel.

heng today no wk......or else die men.....2moro still got class....then must go wk......then must study finish 1 chapter of my law.......i tink my mad days are more to come.......

then sun wat ah? got gathering with sec sch frienz.......then go wk.......after tat dun koe can study a nt.....after finish wk i can study meh? i doubt so....why am i tinking so ahead anyway? i must be crazy.

2006-02-19T03:37:00.000+08:00

today work was so-so...boss came down today...make our job tougher....boss come down=more work...actually can close on time....but she actually let the customers continue drink n play pool sum more...wtf.......and then tat stupid old man say i put song veri lousy....fuck u man, hope 1 day will erase all your stupid old hokkien songs from the song book, then u cannot sing, whole nite sing hokkien songs u not sian i sian alreadi, u everyday come not sian wan ah? i tink u 60yrs old alreadi still every nite drink 1 bottle martell, siao.

haiz i never register for my revision classes...starting wanted to, but then SIM disallow me to cos i didnt pay the membership fee, asked my father about it, he said he forgotten about it, the school told me tat the reminder letter was mail to me long ago, and he receive liao.....tats the prob tat i always angry, how come he must always open my letters, open liao keep the letter some more, until i dun koe anyting. i koe he veri busy, a lot of ting to remember...just pass the stupid letter to me la.then i koe when is the deadline n i can tell u...see now by the time u pay the fees the deadline to register going to over liao....how to select my class like tat? i really dun koe wat to do liao. sum more tat stupid toilet bowl still havent repair, tat stupid dustbin spoil also, now house phone line also cannot call out...really dun koe wat to say man..

2006-02-18T15:25:00.000+08:00

so long nv blog liao...have been having prolong flu and fever over and over again....i feel somehow or rather fatter mentally, lately. tis yr life in school was even worse than last yr. health was worse than last yr too. anyway, everyting has a bad start correct liao. sorry frienz if u all msg me the past week i never reply cos my line kana cut off never pay bill, so i cant reply msgs or make outgoing calls, wats more my house phone spoil also...tell me tell me...how how how....life sucks! =(

2006-01-28T04:09:00.000+08:00

just reach hm from work....today actually got sch.....end up nv go sch wake up immediately went for work...today happy n sad n angry at the same time...happy bcos in my heart koe liao hhaha. sad cos in my heart also koe liao. angry bcos office politics again. 1 customer ran off without paying bill, end up 3 of us have to share the cost of tat jug of beer, share the cost nvm. still.......long story....anyway.......i really dun koe wat to do.......drink a lot today.....end up alreadi so seh liao still kana pull go eat supper.....if not for i dun haf bike i would haf gone home straight after wk .nw all the water n food in my stomach...dun koe hw to slp men.......i tink 2moro i must slp the whole day.....cannot tahan liao.....some more 2day wk until 2am going to 3 liao still dun haf extra pay.......wat is tis men......my boss really damn niao......no wonder so mani pple quit liao.......some more tips so little.........if not for tis place near my hse i would haf quit liao......drink so much liao some more yr own boss ask u to drink again.......wat is tis men........tink i so strong ah........fuck u man!!!!!!

2006-01-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

woke up heng in time for my lesson later..special thanks to eugene who gave me morning call at 10+....or else tink i will still be slping away like a pig.......see now still got time to blog...wahha

ytd spent my whole day outside....i got no sch and no need work!!!went west mall to shop n dye my hair(again!!) had lunch at delifrance then ya actually i wanted to dye a brighter brown colour....but after tat decided against it....my hair alreadi no hope liao still dye so bright....will make it look more rough.......so i dyed a ash green colour....ohh did i mention tat 1 week ago i went pro trim to rebond my hair and it looks like shit now.....rebond like never rebond like tat......hair curly then usual now.....tat place sucks i will never go there again!!! wasted my money =( after tat continue my shopping again then had dinner at burger king but i oni ate 1/4 of the burger......then later when chua chu kang kbox drink beer n sang until 3am closing....

okie now i go dilly dally n prepare go sch liao......

2006-01-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

wake up early early on sat go for my class..after tat went home take nap then go work...mix a lot of drinks during wk...tat day like all the tables got different kinds of drinks....so i also drink red wine...chivas...beer......oni seh but nv vomit.....got one regular still give me n my collague $10 tips each....=)....tat nite really veri fun.....some incident laugh until pengzz......i on techno at the end of the nite then got one old man dance until like wat...after tat still can da bao roti prata home and eat.......reach hm liao, wanted to pour the curry into a bowl but ended up most of it on the floor, i tink too seh liao haaa .next morning kana scolded.....

next day wake up got a bit hangover......met guo wei at west mall eat sushi.....and then he haf to go back camp liao.....i accompany chun mei go bugis shopping......end up she didnt buy anyting i tink nthing caught her eye but i buy lots of tings.....so now just come back.....sibei sibei the tired now.......actually wanted to revise my wk but i tink 4get it slp first 2moro then say...

2006-01-13T02:31:00.000+08:00

just came back from work and supper...today was a cold n quiet nite...with a few of the usual regulars tat turned up....nothing much to do for the whole nite....some more bcos of my still bandaged finger.....not complied to do most of the tings....i entertained myself with sweets n chocolate n coke throughout the nite, oni drank a few sips of beer today.

had fried noodle for supper just now, with a few bites of chicken chop from linda's plate. i tink she influenced me, always i work with her bo bian must go eat supper with her, as i have to share cab with her after tat.

just found out today tat the deadline for payment of exam fee is tis sat, no letter mailed to me, nothing at all. knew it from frienz. faster tell my mum about it when i told her is $2772, i saw the shock on her face...guess i wont have any pocket money for the next few mths liao.......i guess nowadays a lot of money being spent on me...the hospital bills la n now tis.....i feel so guilty knowing tat they have to pay all tis money for nothing bcos i never study and most prob i am going to fail again.

2006-01-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

arghh. stupid linda, u scold me one more time..u try and see!!! u always tok behind pple's back, tink i dun koe ah!! and boss also, always tok behind pple back, wah lao eh. cannot tell them anyting in future. just bcos got customer ask me go eat supper, then u tell me must be professional n must draw a line all tis shit. for goodness sake i never even agreed to have supper with him. keep on nag nag nag..even worse than my mother. one day u make me cannot take it liao then u koe. shittttt~

thur went back nuh took x-ray, put splinter, and take the irritating wire out. only 1 small injection alreadi so pain. dun koe how he inject. inject until now still can see the hole so big and got blue black around it. was scared like shit and i still cried in the end. then doctor say after 3 more weeks see how. hehe the doctor quite yandao sia..lolz...aiya..i now just pray to god hope for the best hope the following days will go well for me...let my mood be so much better......

2006-01-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

a new year but i dun feel like a new year at all...i just finished work and just reach home...today my ex whom i koe at rush came to visit me at my wkplace.....came a few times liao....dun koe....why he stay so far so tired still come....nowadays like i only work and go out...i havent even start to go back to school yet...i feel i have completely lost in touch with my sch work....i dun even koe if now i start going back to sch can catch up a not....mock exam in feb...exam in may....i really got no confidence..i feel like giving up everyting...like got no goals at all.........

nowadays veri veri depressed.....wat a great way to start tis year...i really feel like going clubbing forget all my troubles.......some more cannot drink so much...must be careful wat i eat, cannot eat tis cannot eat tat...everyday must drink milk and cheese and stuff to strengthen my bones.....

to xxxxx, i can tell u i hate pple who shout at me...i hate pple who are violent...even not violent in action but in words.....wats more if its my bf who can shout at me until i cry......even if u are in bad mood also is tat an excuse? tink about your violence and words tat u say, tat really hurts me a lot and wats more is not true at all...tis incident really completely turns me off...u really make me have the impression tat you are like my frien's violent bf tat hit me......u keep on say when tings go wrong i blame u for everyting...in fact i never tot of blaming you at all..i never said it was your fault....maybe your character is like tat....tis i understand, just like my character is also like tat, maybe we just dun suit each other at all. u say i chose bike chose work over you? u should koe tat these are 2 different tings altogether.....i work cant be helped...if i nv wk u yang wo isit? u shd koe tat bike is my interest....u cant stop me from doing wat i like to do.....just like u cant stop me from chionging......just like i cant stop u from smoking....forgive me for having to tell u all tis tings dwn here.....as i find it veri veri hard to tok to u even on the phone about all tis tings....like last time, even before i wanted to tell all tis ting to u i kana shouted at first...until i 4got wat i wan to say....until i find it hard to explain tings to u.......anyway......its over......take care.......

2005-12-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

i have started working! actually was oni supposed to work in the kj room only as i cannot do all the heavy chores...but then after 2hrs...i helped out a bit...clean tables and wat so ever...another hr passed, i tabbed my first glass of beer i was so happy...another hr passed...i started drinking my first mug of beer....it was too boring in the kj room...cant imagine if i haf to stay inside for the whole nite....in the end...i even started opening caps of bottles and pouring drinks some more...oh man...i underestimated myself and wat i can do~~

someting to mention on christmas eve....countdown at my wk place as i was wking....after the countdown....we pop all the raffles or wat and then i tink my boss a bit seh liao he ask me to play some dancing music....i was so happy i pop my canto disc inside the cd player....and he asked me to blast it....okie then i blast so shiok men....like rush....and i chose watever songs i like so shiok...then after about 10 techno songs like tat...back to the customers singing......had a mini buffet also...with mifen all tis.......but i nv eat a single ting, no appetite....just drink and play cards with everyone.......until about 3am then the pub close!!! after tat wah lao the whole pub was in a mess must vacuum all tis....cant believe i even helped to sweep the floor even though i was clumsy.......but throughout the whole nite, i banged my finger a few times accidently, was painful all rite but still not broken. it survived the nite!! oh and tat nite i burned my left finger while i was lighting up my ciggie. too too clumsy liao.

mum is starting to nag at me to go sch liao....i tink she just cant stand seeing me at home lazing around.......excuse me i still haf mc until the end of jan ok!!! but might as well.....haizz.....im going back to sch tis fri......2mths nv go sch liao......my MIA period plus my accident period.......and i dun miss sch a bit.......i can go out.....but i cant go club....is non sensical.....i dun wan to take the risk of being drunk and bending the wire inside it and it will become worse....healthy lifestyle pls~

been tinking about it for veri long......i have decided not to sell my bike.......i just cant bear.....now in bike shop.....expected the repair to be hell lots........my fellow bikers gave me confidence to continue moving on......learnt and repent from tis lesson.......sure will have accident wan......i will stand up from my fall again =)

2005-12-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

i love all the goodies tat u all bought for me...all the cookies n soup n tidbits n drinks n hotdog...i tink i will really grow fat in no time..thanks!!!

today is a tiring day sia...was out for the whole day. early in the morning go tp..got appointment...luckily they never deduct any pts....im safe.....officer told me my case still pending...result of whether the other party is in the wrong s nt will be out earliest 1 mth??!! gd loh. happy waiting for me.

noon time oh went nuh let doctor see how my progress. he said its a bit better and take out all the threads from my finger. i have learnt to endure pain liao! found out tat will take at least 2mths to fully recover...oh my god can someone kill me pls

after tat go bike shop reluctantly pay my installment...told my mechanic i buang...kana suan...still can laugh....ask them to tow my bike from tp for me....

after tat still can shop at queensway with irvin....then tiong bahru plaza....then go home.......

okie finally everyting settle liao....can set my mind at ease liao........

2005-12-21T11:35:00.000+08:00

missed the appointment to go polyclinic just nw...woke up late....or rather i dun feel like going at all.....i dun even feel like going for my follow ups at NUH....last nite the pain tat i fear came again when i was sleeping...my middle finger was like so pain tat i woke up from my sleep.....i knew wats the cause of it....it was raining last nite and the weather was so cold....my finger cant tahan coldness the doc say...

i tried bending my finger for the past few days but it just cant bend.....tink bcos of the wire inside.....i fear so much of going back to the hospital now...i fear tat one of tis days they will take out the wire again and i haf to go through wat i went through during the surgery again....tinking of tat just sucks........why i have to go through all tis shit......i have no one to blame but myself....

i chose to ride...i chose tis path...i knew the consequences....i believe in my beloved...yet it let me down.....i tink bcos i nv wash him for so long, he taught me a lesson.....i havent got him back now...wonder how is he.......he's still at the traffic police....2moro going to see him for the first time after the accident........most prob going to sell him...i cant bear but no choice.......been with me for oni 6mths and tis had to happen......most prob i would have dun koe how mani pts deducted also.....cos i was riding above speed limit.....deduct all u wan....i dun care liao.......

2005-12-19T09:40:00.000+08:00

have been tinking a lot while at home tis few days...i cant seem to recurperate well...keep on looking at my calender....keep on wondering when will i fully recover, when can i go back to my normal life.....some more relationship prob make me headache....time seems very little for me......now some more i got sore throat..i dun koe wat to type liao i cannot tink properly and no mood. till next time..

2005-12-17T10:32:00.000+08:00

a week has passed since the accident. its amazing tat i can still manage to type with only my left hand...but no surprise...i have since learn to do everyting with my left hand..eating,bathing,typing...glad to say tat my wounds are getting better, but still damn pain okie...still a long long way to recovery....and still limping around the house...my stupid foot....only ting tat hasnt got better at all is my finger, i dun even dare to touch it, cant even move, i tink tats the end of it......

just came back from the polyclinic from changing my bandages....im going crazy soon staying at home everyday...past few days i oni do a few tings..eating or sleep or watch tv or online or smoke....standard everyday......i tink im going to grow fat soon...some more i really really very behind my studies liao......tis is the end men....and my wk place there dun koe still wan me a nt.....

why so mani pple say im very lucky? the doctor n nurse say i also very lucky...tat my fingers not broken...lucky tat my face no injuiry.....just now tat polyclinic nurse also say lucky i got minor injuries only.....then i say huh like tat call minor ahh?? and she laugh n told me i shd have seen tat ah peh sewing needles on his leg..okie loh ya maybe i shd be glad tat my face not disfigured......

2005-12-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

haiz..tink most of my frienz koe wat happen to me liao...skided on the road on fri evening...i will never ever 4get tat moment...kana drag for a few metres on tat stupid rough road surface....next moment i koe i saw my whole hand all filled with blood.......my bike was thrown further from me....tat female rider stop her car take tissue for me..call ambulance all tis..i just sit down there n stare into space..tink i too stunned liao....then when i was in the ambulance i tink i cried for a while cos i saw my middle finger the whole nail broke off and then my whole finger was jaggered...i tot siao liao must cut it off liao.........

2nd time i cry is in the surgery room...where they do surgery on my 2 fingers....i was conscious the whole time...although they gave me lots of injections to numb my hand..i can sill feel the pain.......cry until like siao throughout the whole operation.......the painest experience in my whole life....when i came out my eyes were veri puffy liao n i alreadi numb to pain liao.......i keep on tinking cut off my hand better.........the best part is when they scrub n wash n clean my wounds....omg.....the pain damn shiok.....

i feel like a useless person now, everyday must stay at home, cannot go sch, cannot go wk...the ting i scared most is tat my fingers dun koe still can function properly a nt......2moro still must go back nuh change my dressing.......tink nw i got phobia of bikes.......really.....just now i saw some bikes on the road i shiver a bit........anyway thanks for u guys who came to see me okie.......

2005-12-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

just woke up...got a very the splitting headache from last nite.....nowadays mood not so good.....so last nite went mu.....went with my gal frien....drink long island tea la, beer la, graveyard la....some more free flow until 4....can drink until like siao....shiok men last nite....the crowd best la....finally once i can stay away from young kids.....even though got rnb also.......but i enjoy myself....80% of the whole nite is techno and those old techno also.......then halfway guo wei msg me.....ask whether wan go rush a not, actually i tot i wanted to go when there is rnb, but techno all the way until i cant bear to leave......just one word...shiok.......but now my head even more shiok......already missed my lesson in the morning......later still got lesson....how to go sia.......i still feel like vomiting.......

2005-12-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

oh man i love this video....i watched the whole ting k! if oni got such concert in spore....i sure go wan laaaa.....alice deejay has high stamina to dance so long!!!

2005-12-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

On monday, Me and mich finally went orchard tower to put tattoo, we went to the same shop where i had my first tattoo...but different person....we both decided tat we wanted living creatures on our back! mich had a butterfly while i had a lizard...if oni i got a camera to capture the pics.....

it was as painful as i expected..cant believe so fast i had my 2nd one liao...the first one was oni around 6mths back.....

nowadays my mum always stay at home, think she got no wk la, is the school holidays...sian man...when she at hm then i also at hm...always will ask me i no school meh? so free ah? wah kaoz....

just came back from sch....just bath finish...really really had a hard time bathing sia.....tink now take a nap first....later going to work.......

2005-12-05T14:48:00.000+08:00

so long never come here and blog...my com broke down...my printer broke down....-__- but now its up and going again....after work and rush last nite....i woke up late 2day....cant even wake up on time even though its an afternoon class today.....shit......

tink will not be chionging so often liao....going to stop all tis nonsence once and for all.....i going to take all my notes out and conquer all of them...im gonna to strip all of u naked. alvin is rite...wats so difficult about it? just read tat damn stupid bloody notes..will not allow spider webs to grow on them again.

2005-11-27T12:00:00.000+08:00

just woke up...and feeling much like wat i felt last yr when i almost everyday got drunk...a really big hangover is wat i feeling now...

ytd while at wk...got one of our regular customer bday again....ytd is the first time i vomit while at wk, really buay tahan liao...supposed to close at 12, but we closed at 1, just for them. see how gd we areeee.......after tat rode home...then immed slp...nv even bath, so dirty n smelly rite...haha.....feel really like heell now....=(

i miss rush!!!

2005-11-25T12:43:00.000+08:00

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2005-11-25T09:34:00.000+08:00

i skipped sch for exactly 1 week and 2 days alreadi...and still counting...i have worked hard and worked like siao for the past 2 weeks....i finally banked in my cheques ytd...like a lot but actually not a lot...still must wk more...i bought a ring for 10 bucks the day b4 and lose it straight away...freaking mad!!

on wed...a couple came to my pub...tat guy was really damn impatient....to make a long story short...he said "why u so cha/lan?" just bcos i couldnt find most of the songs tat he wan. firstly, u come in and say u wan tis and tat song, and u wan it straight away. where got such ting? u wan me to find song also need time rite? u tink i wk here for 10yrs liao...can find any song just the snap of yr fingers?? anyway he made me really pissed off after he said why i so cha. ok fine, so i just normal tok to other customers and bo hiew him. still dare to complain to my boss say i cant find the song and say why so long his song havent come. at tat time i realli veri du lan liao...i dont even wan to service him. showed him attitude all the way and dun play his songs until he cannot stand it also i tink and ask for the bill and leave. u wan good service, please tink of yr attitude towards the staff first, or else dun expect good service back..shitty guy. luckily boss nv scold me or wat. instead she shared my sentiments about him being so shitty.

koe how i feel now? i feel like im floating and floating like dun koe float to where....dun koe i wan to float to which direction...tis makes me shitty also....not tat i dun haf goals or wat....just tat i cant seem to be able to continue studying anymore......and if i dun study....waste money time effort...if i study....must worry about tis and tat.....

wat my frien say is true...from poly until now...for every semester...i never fail to MIA from sch for a certain period of time...even now in SIM i also like tat....tis period is my MIA period from sch......i also dun koe why i like tat.......studying and working is indeed not easy at all.

2005-11-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

sweet-talkers...hypocrites...people from all walks of life....i have experienced and seen much from my job...a job tat allows me to interact with pple....pr skills is very impt....but i like my job...although it can be bored at times. at least better than a desk-bound job and can do watever i wan....have encountered so mani tings....

a man bringing his mistress here...
a couple came and the wife told me secretly she knew her husband having affair and cried...
a woman in her 40s got drunk and poured out her sorrows to me n i kana scratch by her sibei the long fingernails...

i tink i become counseller liao....

who will understand my sorrows??.....

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2005-11-21T14:46:00.000+08:00

i just rode to sch and found out tat today's class was cancelled..fuck...cancel also nv inform us.....wat is this?????so i come home again...i left my hp and ciggie at my wk place ytd....argh...a day without hp sucks....luckily later would be wking again....i revised some notes just now...with techno blasting the whole hse...i feel tat i can study better with techno...haha.....depends on wat i am studying....

ytd work ends at 12...but me n my collague n some customers stayed back to drink in the pub although it close liao...tok a lot about the boss who very bossy...likes to boss their own staff around...ya its true...he still scolded my collague off in front of all the customers....haiz...working politics.....haiz....sian...so hungry but nthing to eat....tink go and eat some maggie mee and hard boil egg....

2005-11-20T01:26:00.000+08:00

have been busy..tis week...on 2nd tots...isit really busy? or busy sleeping oni? haha..let me recap...

mon- go sch..go work..sleep..
tue- sleep whole day and slack at home
wed- go sch...go work...go rush...rounding...sleep...
thur- actually got sch but nv go...sleep again i tink..then rounding...
fri- never go sch again..then go work...sleep...
sat- go sch...go work...and now just reach home fm wk...

look like i doing the same ting everyday hor...nothing much...and ah always i go rounding ah...sun come out then reach home...shag men....too tired to do anyting else liao...plus the beer and martell and whisky tat i always drink during work tis week is enough for me to tire myself out liao....i tink i no need go chiong so much liao...drink at my wk place can liao...even now i a bit sleepy liao...alcohol can make u sleepy wan leh....i tink u all guys must be at rush enjoying now...as much as i wish to join u all...i really buey tahan liao....

today so busy at work...but i quite happy...today my boss just told me she going to increase my pay...shiok sia!! at last after 2mths of hard wk there....oni increase by 1 buck per hr...haaa...better than nthing......yay so happy......

2005-11-14T03:12:00.000+08:00

friday..while working...felt veri bad...no mood to wk at all as my flu affects me...air con so cold but my whole body so hot...fuck...some more so crowded so busy...played tat dice game again...i tink tat game is damn scary.....can make u drink a lot...after tat i went home...had the worse sleep of all, even have a hard time sleeping...

sat i nv go sch at all...sleep shiok shiok until evening...then go work...feeling better but still got flu and my voice change until dun koe like wat...oh got customer jio me drink again, dun care just drink...then after work i still can go eat supper...then go home rest for 10mins wait for my friens.....then we go rounding...long time no go rounding liao...4 bikes oni not a lot...koe them through my frien...i tink they are a bunch of nice pple although look like those beng beng type...but actually not at all...halfway riding..my frien say my tyre got air come out a bit punctured...so go petrol station and he actually wanted to help me pump the tyre instead he go and make spoil my `tat ting` dun koe wat ting. nvm so we rode slowly to his mechanic shop there left my bike there as it was midnite liao...and i have to become pillion liao...slack at west coast mac....then reach home liao alreadi 7am...feel like vomiting by then liao...i tink smoke too much...

sun...feeling much more better...the flu stop...but now coughing like mad.....shit...woke up late...so cant go collect bike...took bus to work....a bit of exercise is good for me...very very few customers today...then last min going to close liao then got 1 couple buy me and my collague beer...12+ liao still down there drinking...after tat go meet the same bunch of pple again...tis time got more bikes...but oni go eat supper...then go collect my bike...everyting is ok liao...then now reach home....

a lot of tings on my mind now...life is really tough...tinking of going to school 2moro...sian like shit....after tat still must work....tell me tell me where got time for other tings!!! life sucks!!!

2005-11-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

suppossed to be in school now...but why am i at home?!! im sick...veri sick....have severe sore throat...and flu...tat really sucks....

anywayz...mich jio me to rush on wed...so i went there after my work...but after a while she go liao..=( kalidas was there too!! and then after tat left me n my frien...oni we two gals...and then beside us was a big grp celebrating some1's bday i tink...oni like tat...it was a funny sight...in the end we made frienz with them...all malaysians sia.....and they drowned us with martell dun koe wattz...quite seh liao by the time i step out of rush...bought a can of green tea and faster rode home. on the way home at bkt timah rd...first time kana road block!! i reeally so scared tat time i will kana stop...then siao liao i drink so much...i try to put on a smile...luckily he waved for me to move off!! close shave sia...

then on thur...i stayed at home the whole day also when i should have sch...in the nite went rush again....oni me n my frien...i try to jio a lot of pple but all dun wan to come out on tis funny day to chiong...then nvm....when we reach...wah lao eh the whole club only got 2 pple and we all...okie i found out smthing...tat on thurs they also have free flow for gals!!!~ but oni can take vodka. ok so the other table was a guy and gal. then sudd tat guy came over ask us wan to play dai dee a nt...then ok loh...we play 2gather...and we all made frienz!! and the whole nite oni us and 2 more pple...we play tat 5-10 and frog jump game and drink and dance 2gather for the whole nite until quite seh......after tat...i go buy green tea again and rode home again......standard wan!!!

ok then when i was riding home....as i was riding veri fast...about 120-140....and no cars so shiok then i sudd pass by 1 van, then after i pass by it then i realise tat it was a police van...shit....i look back at my mirror the police van flash their headlights....and followed me!!! omg scared the shit out of me....my first reaction was....to go faster......luckily nv caught up with me...oh my.....

so today i woke up with sore throat and really feel sick man...later still got wk...really dun feel like going.....but bo bian...haiz....life is really tough for me =(

2005-11-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

today shiok sia!! no school no work!!!! just came back from town...purpose actually to buy bday present for my gd frien....but end up also buying tings for myself....bought necklace la...bracelet la...top ah...nail polish la...eat la...actually wanted to go kbox n watch movie ah..but then ah..bo lui $$$...saving money for my 2nd tattoo with my sweetheart....a few days later...getting quite scared but excited!!

i try not to tink about it but tinking back...i really dun koe u can get angry also such a small matter. isit wrong to sleep a bit more??? say until me like wasting yr time..ya i tink i wasting yr precious time when you can use tat time to spend quality time with yr family. im so sorry tat i like to sleep so much.

2005-11-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

I'm stressed stressed stressed~i hope eugene my collague faster come back from US...then no need wk so much....he holiday until so long...1 mth!! now oni me and 1 new gal wking....last week wk 4 days a week...tis week wk 5 days a week...i wan to die liao......anyone wan to wk as waiter/waitress? leave msg at my chatterbox! my boss finding pple...at bkt timah.....
lucky lucky ting is tat my wk place near my hse...save time and money!!!

anyway...some pics..taken at the chalet...

defrosting the chicken wing in the toilet

when i was marinating the chicken laney took a secret pic of me i presume -_-

this is a funny pic haha

cheese!!!

group pic...

2005-11-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

went for work last nite...tat customer johnny was there again..i tried to avoid him, when my collague told me tat he was too romantic, i dun koe wat she means at first, then after going out with him for the first time and thereafter....i finally know what she means.

The first time i went out with him...we had mac breakfast...he bought tat bookmark ting all 3 of them..hello kitty, melody, n the chao ta face black wan for me...

He asked me out for dinner about few weeks ago. as i veri hungry....and also wan to eat...so met him at ps to have dinner.....i waited for him at the fish n co....a while later he came....oh my god he had a bunch of flowers in his hands....and he walk over to me n gave the flowers to me...wah lan eh i so paiseh, everyone was looking at me....then after tat went for coffee at dome..then went home...nothing wrong rite, frienz only wat??

but then nvm the next day he keep on msg n call me...i in sch he also call...i working he also call...i told him wat the fuck u wan to chat with me come down to the pub la....he say dun wan...wan to chat with me on the phone...wah lao pls loh i working leh.....

Like this still nvm leh...he knew my bday on 1st nov...he knew i having chalet....when he call me on tat day purposely dun wan ans...dun wan to tell him my chalet number.....ok nvm...still keep on asking me to celebrate my bday with him...said tat he will make me the happiest gal on earth.....wtf.......still say wat he guarantee i would be too lost for words...cant even say thank you to him -_-" really fuck! i am thinking must be give me flowers again and bring me to those restaurant n eat i koe his stunt liao..like tat can make me happy meh?

In the end on the day of my bday i didnt go out with him...in fact i was scared to.....i thought tat all this "surprises" was over liao...but then it havent....the next day when i went for work......i saw him alreadi sitting at the pub counter there.....omg he go and tell everyone in the pub including my boss tat it was my bday.....he open 1 bottle whiskey for me to drink...diaoz....a few hrs later...he brought in a bday cake...n play tat bday song in the whole pub...sibei sibeii de paiseh loh.....still must blow candle wat shit.....and then after tat song liao loh......as everyone koe its my bday liao........one by one jio me drink liao loh.....i koe i shd thank him for taking so much effort...but then.....he tink like tis can make me happy? no loh....then after tat i veri high alreadi ah.......i can walk ah but walk a bit zig zag...but i try not to walk around so much.......he waited until i finish my work.....after i left the pub i saw jeff,alvin,ah gui waving to me from the carpark...actually he told me i must treat him supper in appreciation for his efforts....wtf.....and then i told him i must go liao my frienz wait veri long liao........then i just walk away......haaaaaa.........

the next day i work again......sudd got 1 lady and a little gal come to my wk place with flowers and a pink bear and present.....said she was from the flower shop........it was from him again.......when will he stop all tis nonsence....i dun koe wats wrong with me.......normally a gal tat receive such tings will feel happy wan rite........me i feel so agigated....i complain to my collague......
next time continue...going for work liao....

2005-11-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

im finally and officially 21 liao...old liao!!! got pple say once you reach 21 then time passes very fast liao....i had fun @ the chalet...thanks everyone for coming...thanks for the presents too....sorry as somebody say i so suaku when it comes to the bbq preparation ah...sorry for tat....heee........anyway i had a great time wish u guys have fun also......too bad its only for one nite...im happy tat i can celebrate with my frienz....as for my family...just had a mini sing song cut cake give angbao session only...nthing much....my mum took photo of me...but even tat...i didnt smile...even if i smile...i confirm have fake smile wan loh......dun koe i just cant seem to be happy with my family.....

my greatest bday present of all was founding someone who treasure me...love me the way i am...and the same also goes for me... =)

this week has been a busy week for me...time to continue with studies and work...

2005-10-28T11:04:00.000+08:00

ever got the feeling of really wanting to turn up for school but in the end dun koe wtf your body clock is doing and still woke up late...after tat the feeling of depression slowly sets in and u feel so helpless...a bit kua zhang but tats wat im feeling rite now....sometimes i really feel like giving up...i dun koe wat to do....

wnenever this happens...i will blast my speakers, im doing this rite now as im writing, bo bian as no rush to go in the morning...i thought n0w i seldom go chiong i can concentrate more on my studies liao, but no, its a bit better but overall its still like the same...why is this so diff from poly....for the past 2 mths, i have just concentrated on studying and working...and i did it, i turn up for all my lectures and kept up with studies every week...but the moment i start some enjoyment, esp nite activities, everyting is like back to square one......now dun even koe wan to go for my later afternoon class a not...damn disappointed with myself....

2005-10-28T02:14:00.000+08:00

today i woke up late..went class for 45 mins...then went straight to wk.....took my dinner there...today veri little pple...i tink bcos raining...whole day.....the weather sucks.....was riding in the rain for the whole day.....bike got drenched the whole day also.....now handlebar someting wrong......

last week just got my tips for the month...a pathetic 20 bucks only....wah kaoz....ytd nite one of my customer intro me to waitress in his going to be opened pub @ boat quay...veri attractive pay...maybe going wk there liao.....just readjusting my schedule now.....

sudd tot of someting...dun take things for granted...like i always do....someone who koes wat u like, buy all yr favourite things for you...try hard to please you..but u just dun appreciate it....in the end..u will just suffer.....really......

2005-10-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

had school on friday like office hrs...then later had steamboat at marina....was elaine's bday!! happy bday gal!!! she's one little gan chiong spider on tat day ya~ after tat went club momo...had a lot of drinks sia...left about 5am....reach home dun koe wat time liao.......

missed sch the next day, slept all the way until it was time for wk......after wk went eat supper with boss n collagues........

today also sleep until veri shiok.....

2005-10-21T02:07:00.000+08:00

im so happy tat i went sch ytd and today... =) but the moment i reach home didnt even touch my notes...either too tired or no mood.....

last nite was ladies nite!! and went rush!!! shiok.......

luckily i can wake up on time today...after school...went for work....nowadays i like really work very little.....but during work just now i didnt drink any alcohol!!! im so glad......just now thinking of studying when i reach home...but i tink on 2nd thoughts...i shall go to bed soon liao....im so tired........a whole day of school 2moro....FRIDAY SUCKS!!!

2005-10-19T02:04:00.000+08:00

every tue is a shiok day for me..the only day i no need to go to sch...except for sun lah...spent the whole day sleeping as usual...then around evening the time go pay installment...then go nearby queensway shopping centre walk walk have dinner there....at nite went watch movie again...going to sleep soon liao....weather is good to sleep...shagged sia.....2moro hope i can wake up for my morning class....

2005-10-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

i finally went to rush again on fri after for like...a few weeks?? (so long?). got a fight at 1plus...in the end it close around 2am? tat sucks.

then sat i could not wake up for my morning lesson....never go loh, wake up liao met up for lunch with my long time no see sec sch frienz at holland village swensen...it was laney's bday!! hope she like the present we bought for her....really so good to tok about the good all times we had....

after which i rushed to work....during my work...knew a business manager there...and hes like the same age as me? and he offered me a promotor job (12 bucks per hr), keep on psycho me to work for him after he knew my pathetic pay i got? actually before tat also got customer intro me to wk as promotor for henekin...the pay mani times better...but i just dun tink im up to the job...dun quite like those kind of promotor job...but i dun koe will see how it goes......

after tat went rush again.....=)

then slept my whole sun away...........and after tat......smthing happened........

today....went for afternoon class....just came home...i left my comb at my wkplace again......now no comb to comb my hair, sibei the messy.....i going salon later...and maybe going to watch tat ghost show the wig.....got a feeling i going to fall sick....now i a bit deaf...one of my ear cannot hear...i dun koe wat the heck happened since tis morning........

2005-10-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

tue- went out to town for lunch...then walk ard....actually 2nite got work wan, but dun feel like going. so ask my collague take over me...haha......then go kbox again...sing from 5+ to 12am.....power ah....drink so much beer and nuts also........later went ice cold beer drink again........wanted to vomit but cant.....then go the newton circus tat shift place alreadi......a lot of those seafood stalls.....walk and walk then sudd hear techno coming from a drinks stall...so went there sit......ordered stingray..cockles...chicken wings...and the dun koe wat food...and sugar cane juice...we made frienz with the pple of tat stall there...they veri friendly and funni lah....i still take my techno disc let them play......actually the disc is for today i wk wan to play wan......haha.....just nice........after tat go home by cab liao........also broke liao......

wed- woke up at 3+....missed my 9am lesson.....oh fuck watever.....this is the 3rd consecutive time i never go for tis class liao.......the whole day was like a zoomie just walking around.....like havent wake up......saw my study table....my subject guides just came by mail.....time to study...wanted to study....but cant........went downstairs to smoke....while smoking my boss msg me......"i tot u wking 2nite?" me: "i tot tis week i oni wk tue n sat?" boss: "my dear u have 4gotten, u are wking 2nite, but nvm if u cant make it." -_-" slept veri early...tink 10pm i slp liao.......now just woke up........later going sch le.......

2005-10-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

a friend just told me, about all the stress that he have been going through. said he wanted to quit his studies in SIM. he said he's under a lot of stress, cannot take it anymore. have high expectations of himself, not oni him, his friens and family also have high expectations of him also tat y feel so stress. i keep on telling him why are u so bothered about how pple look at u? you are the one whos studying wat, also not them. say until my mouth dry liao still cannot listen......lastly i told him, u can tell me all this thing, then wat about me, im even much worse off than u..or maybe diff pple haf diff expectations of themselves....i give up...he tok to the wrong person, some more the more he say the more cold water he splashing on me. i really dun understand. reminds me of in poly got 1 gal cried like siao just bcos she got a B and couldnt get all As.

i have this neighbour living directly above me and there is this maid who always play love songs early in the morning for so many hrs. and some more play so loud. and her fav song is tat mermaid song "a whole new world". sometimes when you are at home always hear this kind of music will sian and so wat........so now whenever she on music loud loud, i also on my techno loud loud...

studies wise....have been struggling like every week to keep up with my studies...no time at all.....seems like if u wan to be consistent must make effort every day and cannot stop halfway...now i koe why i so free last yr liao....the moment you slack for a few days only, have a lot of studying to catch up liao. school sucks

and then, i really feel veri guilty about last sun...i dua so mani pple....i dun mean to......actually i hate pple to dua me also tat y.......i fell asleep until 1 plus then i tot siao liao then i msg u all.....haiz stupid me.....elaine...happy birthday......must improve more yr drinking skills!!! okie tats all for updates...

2005-10-05T16:16:00.000+08:00

work last nite was shagged.....i so suay when i work then so mani pple. its full house some more. had fun toking cock with some of the customers and drinking......all of them are really jokers sia........one of my ex collague also came down...and my collague who never wk also....'ta' until like siao....but haiz.....after tat still must wash so many cups......but luckily i brought my techno disc to work.......on the techno quite loud after closing.......at least not so sian when washing cup!!

after tat me n my collague go ngee ann poly there the pub drink some more....oh my god....drink until feel like vomiting.....there the place veri big leh.....got all the sofa seats all this......he gave me a strawberry milk which he never drink! and i got a pack of free ciggie!

tis morning i got morning class. but i never go. of cos when i woke up late and some more with a hangover. i hate myself. i hate myself for having no time management, no discipline. last nite i still can hao lian (in my quite drunk state) to one of my customer say last year i fail 3 out of 4 subject, when he asked me whether i study good a not.

oh Ya guys.....i will be opening a chalet for my early bday celebration about 3 weeks later at downtown east....havent confirm the date yet......it will be specially for all my rush frienz okie?? Hope you all can come...... =)

2005-10-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

today......had a veri nice breakfast.....porridge and coffee.....haaa.......to me very nice liao leh.......had a very long "take my time" bath, i like singing in the bathroom! then went sch as usual........oh my god so hard the topic today. luckily i went sia.....always like dun feel like going to sch........oh and today i smoke 2 stick of ciggie oni....not bad ahh.....

last week i work for 2 days, this week also 2 days, die liao tis time, i work so little.......carm la......but i have to admit tat in a way is good....got more time for my studies and revision........arghh.......actually all this while i keep on tinking of going chiong but i koe i cannot....at least now i can control......must thank my ex......although we were not meant to be 2gather after all.......he helped me in a way......*_*

sudd found this- taken during my attachment in 2003....got diff? i dun tink so........

2005-10-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

wooo...i finally get to go rush again on sat...right after my work...although reach there quite late...but luckily 4am then close......wanna wish alvin happy bday again........hope all your wishes come true.......and to my beloved mich.....happy belated bday........looks like everyone like celebrating bday @ rush......shall i too........anyway i so glad to see everyone on sat......long time never go out with so big group liao....but i can see some of them not present also.........a very tiring chionging day on sat for me, when i was at wk alreadi quite seh liao...ta all the beer and watever......until when i reach rush alreadi cannot drink much liao......the supper was great (fishball soup and green tea) better buy myself or else accused of stealing fishballs again........anyway just wanted to say to all those who go chiong on sat.....alvin, mich, elaine, matthew, ben, jeff, irvin, roxxy, kenny..and jen too...and including those who never come or MIA...i miss everyone of u and hope to see you guys very soon again!!!

2005-09-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

im sick sick sick of studying....nowadays oni keep on study and work, study and work and nothing else liao. rest of the time is sleep. now i rather spent my time sleeping than go chiong. im tired. like tue, i torn the nite outside until 7am reach home. 9am got lesson, of cos never go lah. see now i just wake up later must go sch again. when will i ever get my degree like this??? i tink i have to go back to chionging liao........to relieve stress.........or should i not......

2005-09-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

wed morning woke up go sch for my lesson...then went for work later in the evening......after wk met up with mariana the first time where we both got our bikes and we can see each other and ride on the roads together. haha. went riding on the PIE went all the way to changi airport eat mac at 2am in the morning. after tat reach home liao already 4am liao but i still cannot slp so met up with my another frien who also not asleep. chatted until the sun came out then only i went back home to sleep.

thur leh, woke up at 1pm and i remember i have class at 1.30.....it was raining heavily.....so.......hack la....skip lesson *_* and went back to sleep. after tat forget wat i do liao. i tink i slp the whole day.

fri i woke up early....i had classes the whole day.....after tat rushed back home to bath then rush to work.....i had a lot to drink today....chivas and beers...whoohoo.......until i a bit quite seh liao but of cos must control a bit lah.......i brought porridge back home from my wk place....my boss cook wan...very nice!!! by the time i reach home i immediately pop down to my bed. completely shagged out...
sat, tis morning i felt a bit feverish.....but i still went for my morning lesson......then after tat wanted to go bookshop buy and collect my textbook, but i forgot to bring my wallet.....went to the sch library to study for 2hrs.......now reach home........later still got wk........i going to die liao........

2005-09-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

No sch today!!! Went to town with chun mei at 12+...walk and shop at heeren for a few hrs...bought tat cd from hmv...then ate @ sakae sushi......after tat like havent shop enough...call my wking buddy...but she never pick up...haiz....so in the end......went back at 4...go work then immed play tat canto disc at my wkplace.....shiok men....feel like dancing liao the moment i play tat disc.....haha....drink a tiny bit of beer....so sleepy and hungry now....but my kns kitchen got nothing to eat, shouldnt be called a kitchen at all. can starve to death at home sia. forget it...tink i go slp better...2moro still got morning class.... =(

2005-09-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

Wanted very badly to skip class today, cos veri tired......but in the end still drag myself there......after school.....went to pay installment, saw 1 of the customer at my wk place, haa, he working as bike mechanic at unity i tink.....after tat decided to eat dinner at the nearby hawker in bkt merah with frien......we ordered stingray, vegetables, toufu prawn, so full sia....after tat go home liao.....

i wanna buy the "high" cd!!! it consists of all those popular chinese songs, remix into techno!!! YaY 2moro getting my pay liao!!!

2005-09-19T03:42:00.000+08:00

today i wake up very early....cos ytd slp veri early.....then study a bit.......a few pages of my notes oni lolz.....then buay tahan liao.....then slp again...then go wash bike........3 weeks never wash liao......i wash for 4 hrs....the whole afternoon.....shag men.......until i late for work.......then go wk veri sian.......not much pple......i play pool with an old man, i win haha.......so cold and just sit and watch pple sing.....so sian.......today wk realli like no mood......only 1 of my frien come down visit me......after wk....went straight to rush.......reach there 1am......i was late......poor mich waiting for me.......so sorry....then veri few pple at dancefloor....oni we 2 dance......but we dun care rite.......haha........stanley so gd.....play all our request songs.......now like my alcohol intake go down liao....drink 2 vodka lime oni now like face hot a bit seh liao......... =(

2005-09-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

On wed...last min got to go wk....my collagaue kana bike accident......so left me and another gal to work. tats why tis few days keep on wking....

On thur, woke up in the noon then went for school, after school went straight to work.

On fri, i woke up 8plus nearly late for my morning class...i hate morning classes...then ate lunch liao then got afternoon class some more, after tat ended immed went for work. really damn tired tat day. slept at 3am then today need to wake up early for morning class also. now just reach home and my eyes really sibei tired tink i really not enough slp man. like got a lot of things havent revise yet..feel like wan to bo chap everyting but really cannot.......i just veri tired now going to Zzzz...nitez....

2005-09-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

realli veri pek chek at wk ytd....tat stupid customer ask me find song....i find liao then he say not tis song....i put another song again he say not tis wan is the original wan......how am i to koe which is tat stupid original song.......u tink i god isit.....just tell me the song then i koe......cant u go and take the book and see for yrself which wan isit.....give me black face. at first he come in alreadi show me attitude. just point to the air con and never say anyting. ok i on it. later he just say 1 bottle. when ask him 1 bottle of wat? he say chivas la! wah lao fucking old man how am i supposse to koe u always order chivas im new here and i koe u are regular but no need to show tis kind of attitude rite??? fucking cb old man dun let me see u again.

suppose to have work again later...but dun feel like wking today...changed wking slots to sun with my collaegue...so will be wking fri sat sun......haiz.....

2005-09-12T17:20:00.000+08:00

just finish my first lesson today. tis is the failed subject im taking. there she is, the same lecturer again. and she was toking about the examiner has changed tis year so the exam question is different and watever. so boring the whole time. and then my stomach like growling veri loud for the whole lecture cos never eat lunch, so paiseh. feel like a wasting of my time........... =( i must do all my homework and tutorials today!!!

2005-09-11T05:40:00.000+08:00

quite busy week tis week lah..also training myself wake up early as days goes by...tot my classes all afternoon tis year...but then now got morning classes also......sianz like shit.......all rite so...tis is wat i recall.......

mon- work
tue- work
wed- shop..ktv..chiong...
thur- work
fri- go sch pay sch fees...go bank...watch movie....
sat- work...chiong...

oh ya and just now i work dun koe wat happen i keep on feel like shitting.....stomach damn pain.....tink i shitted 2 or 3 times.......wah kaoz.....tink i eat wrong food.....still can go chiong loh, and now just reach home...such a shiok week......next week not shiok liao......

2005-09-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

somehow or rather...after looking at my timetable...and which sch is going to start next week....i detest those days i would have to live after tat....kept on staring at my timetable, thinking, thought about my wk too, how is everyting going to fit in nicely. and after tat, do i have any time do to other stuff as well...and the more i thought....the more i realise...it really sux....

today i was veri tired at wk....my back was aching....time passes veri slow.....i koe i black face all the way during wk.....fuck those customers....ask me isit i not happy at wk....sure pple will have bad mood at times wan rite.....but they still expect us to laugh n joke about their jokes everytime.......and veri tired today.....imagine if 2moro if i got class at 9am...wah lao eh.....i wonder last yr how i sch, wk, and even got time to chiong........

my bike also sucking me dry....tink every mth half of my pay sure go to him.....its okie......i will survive........

2005-09-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

tis morning...wake up after noon time as usual....mum da bao long john silver back......then slack around and then watch tv the whole afternoon. finally told my mum bout my results. her reaction: "of cos fail lah i never see u study wan".hmm. true. now i koe...cannot study last min...or else no matter how hard u study....sure doom.....so i have decided tat i shall be a hardwking gal when sch reopens!!! at least i koe i keep on play nv study then fail lah. if i study so hard n fail ah...someting must be wrong....rather give up liao....but then again.....nthing is impossible......all rite so 2moro i have to wake up early redo my timetable....would be taking tat damn 3 failed units again and another 3 new units next yr.....fucking sian....dun koe can cope a nt.....must take tat stupid econs again....arghh.....

okie then about 6 i went out for dinner......me n my frien go eunos eat.... he say tat chicken rice there not bad, ok eat liao we share 4 bottles of tiger, why leh? cos of tat stupid tv down there having tat wwf thing or wat. dun wan to go......argh....by the time we drink finish all i dun koe go toilet how mani times liao......my stomach like water bucket.....now my face like still veri hot like got fever ah....haiz got so mani problems in yr heart sure like tat wan.....sometimes like dun wan to think so much also cannot......but anywayz...lifes like tis...ups and downs....just hope the days will get better as days goes by........

2005-09-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

just came home from wk...today was kinda in a bad mood....nowadays all the bad things keep coming in my way...bad news after bad news......this afternoon my frien called me....told me the exam results were out liao....ask me faster go online and check.....i dun even wan to check......i dun even dare to see....but finally i still go see....fuck it.....expected.......cant believe out of the 4 units i took, i failed 3....i tink im the champion liao...nobody can win me liao.......

worse ting is tat dun even koe how to tell my parents sia.....how to tell them...wah lao.....my life kinda so veri messed up now....feeling so depressed.....PlAY more lah, play some more.

2005-09-02T12:20:00.000+08:00

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2005-09-02T11:42:00.000+08:00

this period of the time...is the time to really sort out my thoughts......sudd tot of so mani tings when at home these two days.....wed-play pool, go chiong....thur-go tok cock eat dinner with frien....rest of the time either watch tat superstar thing or online.

i found tat my sis also likes techno, shiok me out of my wits when she was blasting techno when i came home ytd. guess the genes are in us ya. keep on staring at my calender..thinking...once in a while i will do tat.....like wat are those impt dates to remember......like friends bdays coming..results coming out in a few days time...school reopening soon...bike installment.......how much must i earn a mth...how much must i save a mth....should i find another job....relationship prob....

tink i haf no need to keep anyting from here......not even when i go chiong.....just to let u koe...wed i went rush.......u said u dun wan me to destroy my life......think about this. imagine a person from going chiong 3-4 times a week to now, oni once in dun koe how mani weeks......if u cant take this........i really dun koe wat to do liao.........i dun need anyone to love me.....i will become more independent and strong...........

2005-08-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

just reach home...back from wk...wah liao today i drink more than fri sia...my wk place most of the customer is regular...i tink the more pple u koe...the more u will drink loh...more n more like must have PR skills also....'ta' a lot lah......so shiok ah got free beer to drink........tink i no need to go chiong liao.....oni lacks techno therre..haaha.....so shiok!! like now like quite seh but dun feel like vomiting........but veri seh........-_- 2moro can go drink again!!! hahaha

2005-08-28T16:05:00.000+08:00

its a hot sunday afternoon. have been lazing around at home for the whole day. nowadays never sleep until so much liao. slept at 4am ytd nite and woke up at 8am. and never went back to bed since then.

lets see last friday nite i was wking again until 1am...i played dai dee and 5-10 with a table of pple.....by the time 11 plus i alreadi a bit feel like vomiting liao...but not so bad lah...feel like oni....then keep on go toilet pee.....as u koe drink beer veri easy pee wan loh........but after i walk here walk there a while then ok liao....after tat closing liao still feel a bit full with the water all in my stomach....still go and eat supper......dun koe wats wrong with me n him......always quarrel.....sick of it sometimes....our tinking completely different......sometimes really veri angry with certain tings..forever asking me to go in a corner and tink about wat i have done. wat the fuck!! maybe u dun koe but do u realise tat everytime we quarrel im the first who call u back and say sorry!??!!

slept until late afternoon on sat....cos really veri tired....my bones n back realli going to break liao......so weak rite...wanted to go shopping with frien but cancel cos too late liao. then go dblo return uniform......then eat dinner...then go home.....go home still eat chicken wings n maggie mee.......

now i haf stomach muscle pain cos tat time do 50 sit ups at dearie hse cos cannot slp!! n haf muscle cramp also......i tink i really having pms... -_- tis morning wanted to go eat breakfast with you then u wan to slp. i hear your voice like not happy not happy like tat then i also sian dun go better. wan to go watch movie with u also then go n find other excuse. end up quarrelling. i dun understand. i give up.

2005-08-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

ytd wake up then go wk again...wk was fine...when i reach the wk place oni got 2 customers....i went to happily play pool with one of the customer....and later in the nite....i had happily drink a few mugs of beer during wk and smoke also but not a lot lah. had beers at 3 different tables....looking at the tips tat they left for us after leaving, got a sense of satisifaction....haaha......some more got a period of time can chose my own songs to play....best men.....never know tat i can have so much fun while working!!

after wk dearie come n pick me n haf supper and he bought so much stuff, cookies, ice-cream, degreaser, and a cleo mag for me, i spent the time reading cleo still havent read finish.....while dear play computer games and watch those funny videos he keep on laughing until i veri pek chek wanted to scold him but tink to myself better not better control my temper later tings get worse again.

i woke up first about noon time.....luckily today no wk...after a while head home....found theres stupid bird poo again on my bike, tis time is more gross and more grean...sucks......got any more suay a not.....and oh ya the bird poo havent wipe out yet......later haha........then bath n watch tv n eat dinner at home, so long never eat home cook food liao, always i go wk before dinner is ready.

got frien just jio me go newton circus eat....better not......im on diet........but then ate some instant noodle after tat....now like cannot sleep......oh ya today i never smoke!!! happy for myself...all rite it will be the first stick for today...haha......

2005-08-24T01:32:00.000+08:00

today woke up about 2...shiok men feel like slping some more...raining some more....then eat some maggie mee...and go wk liao....

today was suppossed to wk until 12..but i went off at 10..cos veri few pple....nothing much to do today also...after tat haf supper with dearie....had a long chat with him.....find tat a lot of prob between us....now history is going to repeat itself......i really love him a lot but just tat i oni unhappy about the way he tried to change me.....if tis continues...i dun koe wat will happen....i did not feel sad......just feel why heaven is so unfair.....i tink i really not suited to be in a relationship...

dun wan to tink about so much liao...just let nature take its course...now just wan to concentrate on my wk and earn more money and prepare to cry for my results which is coming out soon. i hope the plane from london not working so they no need to fly back with all our exam papers. hope 2nite will rain again so i can sleep until shiok shiok again...

2005-08-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

just come back from work...quite tiring sia today..quite a lot of customers....today the first time i fried the chicken wings and sotong balls...kana splash by the oil...kaoz...then after closing drink beer with the bosses and collegues, after tat ride home, less than 5min reach home liao. bath and now i sitting down in front of the computer, my feet so suan. tue n wed wking again...haiz..but gd...can learn a lot of tings...must learn kj also....fun la......

2005-08-20T06:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dun koe wat u are tinking. get mad at me and ask me to go home for no reason and keep on telling me to go home and tink about wat i have done and do i really wan us to be together. wtf. when u told me i lose my temper again, i really have no idea did i really lose my temper a nt as i was in dreamland. i hate it when always i wanted to storm off and he will say"are you sure" is kind of threatening bcos in my heart i dun really wan to leave. but now, its just so unbearing just too much to take.

i always dun like pple haf bf and gf liao dun go out with frienz tat often liao, and seem tat i am doing this myself. why i wan to torture myself i dun understand myself. sometimes i really dun koe whether i should just move on or try to change myself for him. i always tink about this problem as im not the type who could do all this..but then i always tot tat its worth it to maintain tis relationship. if oni u could be more understanding towards me.

he tell me i take him for granted...wtf...i just dun understand wat cause him to say tat. i show care and concern not veri openly i should say, or i dun koe how to express myself...he always tell me all my bad points in my face...which is veri heart breaking for me but i koe is true. and i sometimes wonder whether do he really deserve tis kind of gal?

"why must u hurt me" he told me..in my heart i tinking why dun he come into my shoes and understand wat i have been going through..its really not easy for me....im really grateful for all the tings he had done for me...cared about me..showered me with love...but he is changing me until i lose all my interest in everyting and i dun like it at all. if not for tat damn clubbing incident, i would have continued to go clubbing as and when i wish..i koe im at fault tat y i stop gg chiong, but for other tings, even though i have temper veri easily, irresponsible, inconsiderate, playful, dun value life, or watever shit tat he tell me, these are still a part of me rite? i really cannot take it anymore.

2005-08-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

today found my bike leaking petrol...faster go to workshop...always i go there i will lose my temper easily dun koe why...

cant believe we quarrelled over how dangerously i ride just now.....ridicululous.....okie i haf alreadi said sorry rite...just got an urge to ride fast also when tat guy rode past me, i koe its dangerous i alreadi said sorry. i lose my temper but i also got apologise rite. wat the hell. dun need to shout at me. i hate pple who shout at me and tell me wat to do. i cant go chiong with the rest of the guys liao......wat more do you expect...cant believe i would ever dun go chiong for a guy...really dun believe....wat haf i become........just wan u to koe tat by not going clubbing im making a big sacrifice....

lastly i have to say...dun change a person all at once....im not perfect u koe. if u dun like my bad points, and u dun like it, i will try my best to change. if u still tink tat im not changing at all or watever, or u have veri high hopes of me, or u are not happy with the way i do things or not happy with my character, i rather u leave. as simple as tat.

2005-08-17T02:19:00.000+08:00

today was my first day of wk at the ktv pub...it was ok...best ting is...can smoke...drink...sing song...play pool with customers...got any more shiok a not...but still got a lot of tings to learn lah...i tink is a nice place...some more is near my house....now a bit tired ah...just now after wk eat supper with dearie then went home...2moro my first day of wk at a rest at holland village again....hope everyting goes well....

2005-08-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

just came home...after 2 nights not at home....luckily nobody around....more and more feel like a stranger in this house man..ya and i got 2 part time jobs confirmed liao...both starting next week...hope everyting goes smoothly and i will stick to those jobs...and no excuse i cant wake up again..cos its in the nite...shiok....after i saw the amt of money left in my bank account...i was startled...can i say im always startled...time to be down for some serious wk. =)

2005-08-13T03:38:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep. so dearie and i just came home from supper. he said today he ate too much tings liao feel like vomiting..earlier in the day...ate our breakfast at 3pm some half-boiled eggs and toast. then do our errands, i went for another interview and paid my bike installment and went ps walk walk and went collect his hp, then ate pastamania. nowadays like cant sleep at tis kind of timing. oni can sleep in the morning loh. tink too used to nightlife liao. and now eat this. im going to grow fat at tis rate man.

2005-08-09T11:06:00.000+08:00

washing my bike can be damn tiring. maintaining it is even harder sia. never wash for several weeks liao. good and the oni exercise for me since i dun exercise much. someday i have to learn to do it all by myself. glad like shit tat today is national day, everyone is at home. or rather, not. sis just went out of the hse. bro 4ever sticking his eyes on the computer screen. and parents just went out too. goodie good i can have some peace...

My life needs spring cleaning desperately.

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nowadays always at home ah..got watch the jue dui superstar on channel u...everyone should watch loh..i like silver ^_^

2005-08-08T04:11:00.000+08:00

1 more month to sch reopen...timetable come out liao...holiday like so long. results havent even come out yet..but tink going to liao...dun koe they will mail me or must check myself. so excited dun koe i will pass a nt.if i pass all my sub i tink i can jump down from window liao. tis holiday a lot of tings happen...had a lot of fun too. time to be serious bout my studies liao. so excited to go back to sch!!

2005-08-05T07:29:00.000+08:00

dearie and i went for supper just now. i finally told him the truth. finally told him wat was going on. he was mad like hell. first time i really see him so bo hiew me. first time seeing him losing his temper. first time hearing him shout at me. i really really felt terrible. i could feel all the anger letting out of him..just like keeping inside his heart for ages. i koe just by saying sorry is not enough. i betrayed your trust in me. u gave me a chance, but i knew tat i could never gain yr trust again. just someting to let u koe tat i have never imagined tat anyone else on tis earth would have cared to change me for the better. after tinking about it, i also dun koe wat have caused me to do tat. hurts me a lot. i kept on tinking to tell u the truth better? or not? or try and run away from reality as usual...but after wat u have told me about honesty..decided to tell u no matter wat are the circumstances..decided to face it...i guess i have only myself to blame..it goes down to my actions. wat i did. my actions caused a lot of pple to be hurt. i dont mean to hurt anyone. as wat u have said, its true tat u wont cherish it until u lose it. its so true. u are really arent like other any guy. first time in my life i wondered, how could i ever meet a guy like tis? its so unbelieveable just as i have lost all hope in love. u are not stupid. im the one whos stupid. dun koe how to treasure. dun koe wat is right or wrong.

now u have given me a chance again-conditions to quit clubbing, to smoke, not to take drugs again. as u have said, if i were to say i could do all tat, its certainly impossible. but i will try my very best to do so. i koe nothing i say will work. if u really wan me to quit clubbing, i will do it although its hard for u to believe, but i koe even so, things will never be the same again...i oni got myself to blame. if u still cant accept me..maybe u will be happier with another not so 'bad' gal as me like yr frienz have said, maybe its better for you. sometimes i think tat i really dun deserve tis kind of love from you. just deserve love from playboys. after all, oni playgirls will match with playboys.

2005-08-04T22:08:00.000+08:00

On wed, went for another walk in interview at clarke quay, tat sux, everyting was so unorganised, then at town irvin n me sit down starbucks chat...then head down to rush with michelle and jeff. its ladies nite, and there's the dance competition going on also. halfway, decided to go find jen, tot can go inside o bar but cannot go in must after 6mths then go in. feeling quite disappointed, went back to rush. me n jeff n irvin keep on playing tat frog jump game n 5-10, and after dun koe how long mich then come. looking at her, i so feel like crying, there is so mani tings i wanted to tell her but tat day wasnt the time to realli tok at all. dance and laugh and shouted but actually deep down feeling quite terrible. after tat they went chinablack...i didnt go...stayed out...so mani ting i wanted to say but realli cant say. today whole day stay out also. dun koe wat the hell am i doing. ytd got a call from siam kitchen ask me start wk on sat. hope history wont repeat itself again.

2005-08-03T01:03:00.000+08:00

this few days the events...sun nite-went rush loh..got irvin, guowei, fabian....long time no see them la..catch up with a lot of tings about their life...rode my bike go chiong in the end nv ride back loh...somebody should know why....

next day leh...go back mohd sultan collect my bike then sudd so feel like being a guai kid and went to jurong library with dearie go borrow some books to read...all romance books lehz..haha...spent inside library for quite some time...the environment make me wan to sleep...but then ah, inside still got tat cafe galieee or wat la, go there eat some sandwich and milkshake and read some magazine, then after tat go home liao.

then today leh, i went for more interviews again. seems tat i like to go interviews than i like to go for wk...tis time once i wk i must stay in the job liao...with dearie go bugis junction walk walk, and went to tat terra cafe to eat until so full, after tat still go a bit of rounding then go bkt timah alameen eat prata and fries and tok cock some more, so now reach home liao. i tink this few days i really eat a lot loh, i feeling so guilty, later before sleep must do some sit ups liao....and i so long never drink beer....i tink im getting alcoholic....

only funny + unglam pics of me can be seen here. haaa

time for pics of my baby in my carpark

cutie hello kitty on my baby

2005-08-02T11:32:00.000+08:00

More and more feel like i am truly a job-hopper. i cant do tis anymore. lots of tings are happening. its like i dun need or little sleep at all. i wan to have a simple life. just sleep at home everyday, once a while go out only.. or to say...i dun have time management...cant manage it well..tat why when someting new comes into my life...sudd i dun haf time for everyting...

2005-07-31T13:08:00.000+08:00

I tink i really sux in relationships. im a failure in relationships. i always act on impluse and after tat regret wat i have done. and blame myself for everyting tat has happen. im stubborn, indecisive. really feel like crying now. when i reach home, still must see the black face of my parents or watever shit. and u still keep on asking me to improve my relationship with them. you dont understand me at all. i cant take this anymore. why cant i just have a peaceful life? why must my life always be so complicated? i am a playgirl. so guys if u dun wan to get hurt, stay away from me. i miss all my friends badly....

2005-07-29T14:22:00.000+08:00

For the past week i oni start to sleep when the sun has come out. and i always wake up oni after 12. but still, i work, which normally starts at 6pm, and after wk go out...dearie said i must be more responsible towards my wk...which ytd i nv went for wk...but spent time with him at west coast playground....we are still young kids at heart!!

for whoever or watever out there, say me childish or irresponsible or never grow up or dun appreciate parents efforts or worst type of pple or gone case, i dun care ok. if u tink just by reading my blog u koe a lot about me, you are veri wrong. so just get on with yr life n i will get on with mine.

2005-07-28T14:38:00.000+08:00

ytd was veri tired after my first day of wk at sakaae sushi...my toes hurts a lot and a lot of blisters bcos nv wear socks...must greet all the customers with tat jap greeting....i cannot take orders as i am still a newbie...basically oni can clear the tables and do those basic stuff like take ice water or green tea for them when they come in....then after dun koe how long still got test....they give me tat menu n all the jap names to go home and learn....

i got learn jap before leh but all forgotten liao....but nvm lah...nothing is too difficult for me...lolz....but a bit sian when sometimes i tink....pay not so gd also....haiz.....found out tat 80% of the pple wking there are malaysians....and they speak cantonese....

the remaining days of tis week everyday im wking....but luckily for a few hrs oni lah everyday...not so bad....hope i can find one more job to wk soon....to idle my holiday away....i have been meeting my sweetie practically everyday since the day we got 2gather....but i dun feel bored at all....instead i tink i enjoy his company more n more....oni if he dun act so childish at times anymore...oni i will koe......

2005-07-26T13:34:00.000+08:00

seems like i got a feeling of drifting further and further from my frienz...sometimes u thought tat u koe them....but then actually u will not koe how they tink of u....why must it be like tat....

like the chinese say....after one wave has subsided another wave came along....i seem to have endless problems.....

becoming more and more lazy....due to having of my bike....i tink i will be getting worse as time goes by........

2005-07-25T09:00:00.000+08:00

if u wan to critrise me by all means. i am born stupid with no mind to think with. im sorry tat im not like some pple who really do their best in their studies and aim for first class honours. i dun haf any high expectations of myself. i cant study. if tats wat u wan to koe. im a total gone case happy?

2005-07-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

FIRST OF ALL i would like to say tat different pple have certainly different lifestyles and different styles of living, different goals. Studying a degree sure leads to a career later on in life, having a good degree sure will help u in a good career. Next step after getting a degree doesnt mean establishing a career. Different pple haf different mindset. Sure, i complain about tis n tat, i complain about parents not giving me enough pocket money, i complain about not enough money to spend, where some pple will tink omg at my age still wan to ask parents for money. sure thing.

and oh ya it is good to save money. spend unnecessary cash? wat is unnecessary? oh ya and i tink im really really veri irresponsible by running away from problems and stuff. oh and i sure dun give any reason for things tat are getting out of hand. i sure dont.

im not lost at all. i know wat i am doing. use my brain? sorry but im damn stupid to tell u the truth. and for your information my bike is not bloddy at all. i can complain all i wan, but i earn my own living. i dun have the need to explain everyting to everyone. and since you tink im a gone case, why even bother to give me advice? there is no need to, no need to at all to do tat. I dun need tis kind of shit from you.

2005-07-24T13:56:00.000+08:00

went rush ytd..it was fun!! long time nv go liao...although is crowded...although still need to queue up when i reach...but then...it was ok as i could meet up with all my chionging kakis...but forget to take photo!!

later going west mall dye my hair liao...tis time is not any outrangeous colour or wat...is must dye back to black...im sad... =(

2005-07-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

Went for my first bikers outing last nite...total in all 19 bikes turn up....we met at pasir panjang food centre for dinner....ate seafood....we put all our barang barang and helmets on 1 table and occupied 3 tables....the guys ordered so much....like kangkong...cockles..stringray...chicken wings...rice...but all were swept away after a while...haha....

next stop was east coast mac....it was funny and a sight to experience so mani bikes riding 2gather at one time....like an illegal gathering...haha...great experience for me...but of cos we are all safe riders, we even haf a leader tat leads the way and some1 at the back to make sure no one gets lost...we slacked n tok at mac....heng not me the oni gal...still got 2 more gals riding same as me...cool....after tat...some of them wanted to go jb pump petrol....the rest of us stayed behind...

last stop was yishun dam...a photo all our bikes were taken...so can u imagine...its a big group of us...waited for the rest to return from jb...then we went home....by the time i reach home...it was around 6am....was so tired from riding long distance.....but it was fun....made a lot of new frienz too!!

1st stop: Pasir panjang food centre

2nd stop: East coast Mac

3rd stop: Yishun dam

2005-07-22T15:19:00.000+08:00

So now everyting is my fault. wat the fuck do u mean tat im such a person?? since when did i avoid u and nv ans yr calls? pls dun assume everyting tat u tink it is. i shut all contacts with u just to spend quality time with another person?? dun need to wish me all the best with him at all, and there's no need to. im not even in a fucking relationship rite now. but since u wan me to...then i will fufill yr wish then.

who else will ever koe how i really feel? are you in my shoes to understand how i really feel? you cared for me, you loved me..ya, i said i needed some time, i didnt wan history to repeat itself again...then another guy comes along and told me the same ting, tat he cared for me and he loved me...and u said wish me all the best wat is tis suppossed to mean? u tink tis whole ting is easy for me? i dun really wan to hurt anyone so some1 tell me wat should i do. and as i said

DUN JUDGE ME IF U DUN KOE ME. dun assume all gals are the same. i koe the feeling of being hurt. so i dun wan tat to happen to any of my frienz but wat can i do? u teach me la. pls im asking u to teach me. yr frienz could tell u tat im a gal tat cheat pple's feeling, leave u for another guy, u tink i dun koe? leave u for another guy...am i even attached now?

i really dun understand wat the hell is tis suppossed to mean tat im such a person. no one really understands how i feel and no one really koes wats the whole situation like now...just leave me alone

2005-07-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

today i went out....when i was preparing...he said "take yr time dun rush"...tis sounds familiar....rode our bikes to erp system n road tax dept to repair his spoiled system...then head down to west mall...he bought me tat small little cutie hello kitty soft toy....i asked him why he buy for me.....he say those few times when i went out with him n whenever we pass by tat shop.....saw me looking at tat.......

and a few days ago when we went far east plaza...he bought me a pair of new slippers....cos he said saw mine was torn n tattered n unwearable....

and today he poured out his heart to me...after supper....really touched....tok about a lot of tings...although he dun drink...dun chiong...dun smoke...and im exactly the opposite...but he still accept the way i am....he doesnt restrict me in doing wat i like....actions mean a thousand words....after going through so much...hurt for a million times....should i believe in love again? i cant sleep....

2005-07-21T01:37:00.000+08:00

tis early morning went straight to town for interview session at a spa in paragon...and i got tat job as receptionist...tat person ask me to start wk next mon...and i have decided....as much as i really dun like and cant bear to leave my golden hair....i will still dye back to a darker colour...cos my current colour is not allowed if im going to wk there....tis type of ting must sacrifice a bit la...im broke....and i dun like the feeling of tat one single bit...

then after tat settle walk around town with frien...and first time go town so early with less pple around...and went to settle our lunch at mac...after head down to bike shop pay my first installment n service my bike...reach the shop around 3pm...their after sales service really sux...there the mechanic all the same...just for some simple servicing stuff need a few hours...reach the shop around 3pm...left at 7pm...at first he was working on my bike...then when some other bikes come in he went off to them...multi-tasking ah??? must sit rite next to him and watch him then he work, wat the fuck is tis...damn pissed off, not going back to tat shop again...now found out tat my brake thingy a bit jam....tat sucks...is he servicing my bike or making it worse???

damn tired when i reach home....from waiting at the shop for hours...in fact you cant even leave the shop or they will ignore yr bike...must stay and watch them...really shitty shit...smoke dun koe how mani stick of ciggie liao still havent finish...next time should have brought my poker cards and peanuts along -_-.

was being jioed to rush...no mood..too tired...in fact i also sian liao...more impt tings to do then always chiong....is tat gd or bad =)

2005-07-18T18:45:00.000+08:00

lots of things happen during tis past week...all the late nights and stuff...im completely shagged out...

and during those times we were 2gather...he treats me veri well...brings me to eat good food...cared about me...but somehow or rather...i still have tat "true love doesnt exist" attitude or mentality...i dun koe wats wrong with me....really cant seem to open my heart to anyone alreadi like i used to....

last nite i went to a big coffeeshop in jurong...a lot of stalls...and then got one particular drink stall play all the rush techno so loud...i was so surprised...and of cos i went to sit at the table nearest to tat stall...really very shiok...and the uncle at the stall was like dancing to the music -_- really such a good atmosphere!

2005-07-10T06:52:00.000+08:00

tis few days like seldom go online...so tired but dun koe why...

today finally finish my last day of wk....just reach hm...and i took 1hr to reach home loh, cos i lost my way again. but at least still managed to get home. lolz. 1 stupid thing is tat dun like to park my bike at tat UE square carpark...scared of all those drunkards and veri dangerous some of them might try to steal yr bike parts....fri n sat ride bike go wk...i was tinking of it for the whole time i was wking....then today i park there, i tink some1 go and bend my mirror..now loose liao....idiot......

finally quit my job at dblo....but i will be wking at another place....the penny black at boat quay...but still havent start lah...i bluff them say next week i cannot...cos i wan chiong and enjoy myself for a whole week before i start wk again...anyway...i guess tis new job is more flexible...got morning shift and noon shift...so i can continue to chiong again without any worries!!! haha...will see how it goes....

a few hrs later going to meet my frien go wash bike liao....i tink washing bike is a form of exercising loh...really very tiring wan leh....then later at nite me going rush...

2005-07-08T14:19:00.000+08:00

cb shop....tink i newbie can chop me ah!!! so many faults...so many tings never change new one for me...after i found out with my frienz...now i koe...my poor baby is sick........after comparing with all my frienz bikes....theirs so shiny and like so new compared to mine....=( cos i havent bought all those washing materials...specially for washing...i tink i must also buy tat turtle wax to polish liao....

dedicated myself next week to fully enjoy myself...before i start wking again........today and 2moro my last 2 days of wking liao loh....so sad to leave everyone...but happy at the same time too!!

so long never listen techno liao...so long never chiong rush liao.......once a week is actually not enough for me...even sometimes i also never go chiong for 2 whole weeks....i getting rush sick liao -_-

2005-07-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

worked on fri n sat as usual...and for some 'unsayable reasons', i had 200 bucks. can be say as tips lah...

so on sunday...i went to my usual salon go pamper myself a bit, spent 150 bucks on cut and treatment....and the rest of the money, spluge it on things tat i long wanted to buy....so now im back to square 1. didnt occur to me tat i should save the money for future use. just wanted to get wat i wan since i haf cash..

and then went rush for a while only....then go PIE expressway test my speed with my buddy...highest speed i have gone is 140.dun koe can go faster a nt..i tink can lah, next time try again. after riding..found a stupid bird shit behind my seat...and one of my head light bulb burst..fucking mad.